What Age Do I Act?

You Are 22 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

Not sure if I totally agree with this since I normally act older, but I'll take it.

--Christian.

Finally ... An Update.

I know it has been forever since I've updated this thing, but that's kind of how I do things. Almost three months and honestly, not too much to report.

Work is going and going. I'm not sure how long that place has to go. I've talked to Raine (the Columbia manager) and we're predicting that we have until the end of January unless some miracle happens. But who knows. Maybe corporate knows something and they're not telling us. I have no idea and I somewhat don't care.

Other than work, life is pretty rectic. Mike, Justin and I have hung out quiet a bit and have made ourselves known in APEX. Well, more them than me. I'm happy for them, but still have some bitter feelings towards the whole thing. I mean, are they that much cuter than me? Or is it that I give off this vibe that I'm to be left alone by everyone? Or is it because I never approach anyone? I have no clue. If you have any ideas, let me know. Maybe it will help me in finding someone or just help me in general.

There has been a new "person" in my life lately although it's not someone of interest per se. His name is Jeff and he's from New Jersey. I ran into him at Central one night through a friend of a friend. He's not a bad guy. Basically, he moved down here because his mother kicked him out, he knew people here and moved in with them. He found his way to my friend and that's kind of how we met. Since then, we've hung out quiet a bit although nothing has really happened between us. I would date him although he has two issues that at this point I couldn't overlook. 1.) He has no job. 2.) He has no place to live. I mean, I know I bitch about not having anyone, and I shouldn't be picky, but still. How would I be able to be in a relationship with someone with no job and no place to live? I doubt I could.

Oh ... and speaking of which, he's going to be temporarily living with me in my dinky ass apartment. And no, not for the reasons you perverted people may be thinking. He recently got kicked out of the place he was staying at and needs somewhere to crash for a bit. I agreed to let him stay here for a little while until he figures out what he's going to do. He's in PA right now, and once he gets here, I'm going to give him the ground rules of my place. It's definately going to be something interesting.

I'm sure I'll have more to write about later, but since I can't think of anything, I'm going to call it quits.

--Christian.

Grand Canao 2005

It's come and gone. And again, it was definately one for the books.

Friday I headed down to Annapolis to pick up my brother. We left around 5 PM and after a bunch of stops and such, we arrived at good ol' Cheatham Annex in Williamsburg, VA at 10. We roamed around some and finally found some of the Jersey boys. Melvin made it this year ... finally. We chatted some and enjoy what was left of the night program. Afterwards, we did our usual of drinking and chilling into the night.

Saturday was our usual sports day of volleyball, tug-of-war and softball. Was rather fun playing and watching everything and hanging with the family again. The night presentations were fun. As usual, my group (BIMAK DC) performed a play and put Ron and Liza on the spot. I don't think they minded much though. So after the show was over, the "youth" (and I use that terms very loosely) got together and did our usual Saturday night routine ... drink!!! Oh what times were had in the past drinking, telling stories, making fun of each other and just enjoying each other. This year seemed a little toned down for us for some reason, but it was still enjoyable.

Sunday was packing and saying goodbye. I always hate that part. A bunch of us went to IHOP for food. Was nice to just hang with a bunch of the group. We ate and had some fun. Afterwards, Mandy's parents showed up and we joked about having them pay the bill. And they did. I was actually semi-shocked. I know how nice they are, but I didn't really expect them to pay for the 16 of us to eat. Well, they did. So we all said goodbye and went our seperate ways.

So all in all, I had a fun this year. And I can't wait until next year.

--Christian.

Thoughts About My World

Things have been rather crazy lately. So what else is new, right? Well, working like crazy, hanging out and chilling virtually every weekend and trying to keep myself sane.

I'm not totally sure where my world is going right now. I feel that I'm in a mini-rut right now. Although I've been out every weekend, I feel that it's more of a formality than for fun. I mean, I enjoy my time out ... but it sometimes feels that something is missing. Everytime I'm out, I usually run into people I've met here since my first night out in Baltimore. Don't get me wrong, they are a good bunch of people. But most of the time, I don't really feel connected to them. I mean, we talk, but it's not like I really know the people I'm talking to. There is no real connection with those people. They know bits and pieces of me, but I don't think that they really know who I am. And I think that is the root of everything. The fact that I don't have any real friends here in Baltimore.

Maybe I'm just overanalyzing things. I tend to do that.

--Christian.

Extremely Pissed

Okay, so I'm extremely pissed right now. A friend of mine and I went out to Central tonight to drink and chill some. Everything was going well. After the bar closed, we hung outside and chatted with some of the others who were at the bar, he with some people he knew and me with some people I just met. So anyway, as the night grew longer, so did the crowd. At around 3:50-ish, my friend went with this random guy to get a shirt he needed for work. I told him that I would wait in my car for him to return since the guy lived in the area. So I waited and waited. My friend calls me and says that I should come over to the guy's place. By this time, I was tired and wanted to get home. My friend also knew that he has work on Thursday at 6 am. So I told him no and he said that he would be back in a little bit. So after a few minutes, I call my friend to find out where he is and he said that he hasn't left yet. I told him that he had 3 minutes to get back. So, being the nice guy that I am, I waited for like 6 minutes and he finally show s up with the guy. So then they take a little while to say goodbye. He finally gets into my car and fucking falls asleep while I'm driving. So we finally get back to my place and I basically tell him that I didn't want him staying at my place tonight. So right now I'm still pissed and last I checked he's sitting in his car outside of my apartment. Am I wrong to do this? Doesn't matter anyway, because he should not have made me wait knowing that I was tired and he had work in a few hours. So anyway, I just felt that I needed to vent this tonight.

--Christian.

Travels of Christian

This past week and a few days have been rather packed with various events for me. I'll try to break it down by day and be brief about everything.

Friday, June 3 -- Leave for Philly to hang out with my cousin. Got o Appetities on Main Street for dinner before heading to Kildare's to drink some. We then head to my cousin's old house and chill with some of his old frat brothers.

Sat, June 4 -- Head into the city to go to an ordination. Very interesting. Then head to a church for the reception. Around 3-ish, head to Jackson, NJ for my other cousin's college graduation luau. Twas great. A handle of Jim Bean, tons of good food, some Capt. and coke and some drunken fun were the schedule for the party.

Sunday, June 5 -- Head back to Maryland. (I know, nothing fun there.)

Monday, June 6 -- Went to dinner with the guy I had been talking to. Then headed back here to drink a little and chat. Decided that we would just be friends for the time being and see where things would go.

Tuesday, June 7 -- Headed to West Virginia to visit a friend after work. Had some fun talking and such.

Wednesday, June 8 -- Headed to Cobalt in DC to visit my friend Chris who was in town for a short visit from California. Also saw my old friend Nate there.

Thursday, June 9 -- Visited my old friend's ex-boyfriend in Sykesville. Met one of his friends and had a good time.

Saturday, June 11 -- Headed to Annapolis to visit my cousin for the night.

Sunday, June 12 -- With my cousin and brother, headed to Rockville to surprise my aunt and uncle for their wedding anniversary.

It doesn't seem like much, but trust me when I say that these days really took a lot out of me. There's not much planned for this week. Set an appointmant on Wednesday to get my hair re-did. Baltimore gay pride is this weekend. Not sure if I'll be heading to that yet. Sunday is probably dinner with the family ... first time in a long time. Other than that, just planning to kick back and relax. If you wanna do anything, feel free to call me.

--Christian.